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hi im maddie and you look absolutely stunning today
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good things!!!

  • they have successfully released colored dye into my brain 
  • the dye is PINK so my brain is now PINK rihgt now and thats ccute
  • a few of my friends came by and gave me daffodils!! my favorites//
  • i might get to go home tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a few bad things 

  • i have to come back in about a week and decide if i want to have open brain surgery or go under the gamaradiation knife
  • im not allowed to drive for 6 months so instead of getting my license in 2 weeks, i’ll have to wait until next year 
  • there’s 3 weeks of my college left and it looks like i wont be able to go back for a bout a week and a half, so basically i’ll have to pull out with whatever average i have rn//// hhhh

also hospital food is really super duper gross!!! but i’ve been telling the nurses jokes all day and htey said that they wish i didn’t have to leave because i make the hospital brighter so im glad i could make them happy!! 

again thank you so so so much to every single person who’s wished me well and just!!!!! ahh im crying agian oh ymgosh im so thankful for all of you so so much tHANK YOU SO SOMUHC <3333

im getting dizzy and tired now from sitting up so i think i’ll head off to bed!!! goodnight for now and thank you all again soso mmuch!!! <333

I saw through a mutual (nes/mio) that you’re having a rough time, and I sincerely hope for your safety and that you will get well soon!__________________________________________________THAnk you so much to masashiba for this absolutely adorable get well card!!!!!!!!! gosh im crying so much thhis is so nice of you all to do!!!!! thank you!!!

I saw through a mutual (nes/mio) that you’re having a rough time, and I sincerely hope for your safety and that you will get well soon!
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THAnk you so much to masashiba for this absolutely adorable get well card!!!!!!!!! gosh im crying so much thhis is so nice of you all to do!!!!! thank you!!!

kyouhomu:

THIS IS FOR MADDIE SOULGEMS&#160;!! You’re one of the sweetest kindest people i’ve had the honour of befriending and you rock my world :))) everyone please leave maddie some nice messages in her inbox  since she’s going through a really tough time right now and it would mean everything if you could give her your support

thank you nes!!!!!!!!!!! oh ym gosh this is wonderful thank you so so so m uch!!!!! i love you very very much and thank you for all your support!!!!!! &lt;33333333333 

kyouhomu:

THIS IS FOR MADDIE SOULGEMS !! You’re one of the sweetest kindest people i’ve had the honour of befriending and you rock my world :))) everyone please leave maddie some nice messages in her inbox  since she’s going through a really tough time right now and it would mean everything if you could give her your support

thank you nes!!!!!!!!!!! oh ym gosh this is wonderful thank you so so so m uch!!!!! i love you very very much and thank you for all your support!!!!!! <33333333333 

kyomami:

something I drew for maddie soulgems asjd&#160;!! I hope you feel better and get well fellow blogger friend u m u.. if you could send her some messages that’d be nice!!

thank you so so much len!!!! im cryng oh ymg do thank you so so much ilu this made my day!!!!!! &lt;33333333

kyomami:

something I drew for maddie soulgems asjd !! I hope you feel better and get well fellow blogger friend u m u.. if you could send her some messages that’d be nice!!

thank you so so much len!!!! im cryng oh ymg do thank you so so much ilu this made my day!!!!!! <33333333

i am crying from all the overwhemling support in my inbox ohh my gosh!!! thank you to:

Em, my cousin who initially made the post about my condition!!! i lov you em and i really really wish u were here right now <3333

to everyone who’s drawn me things/put things in my tag!!! i just looked at them and im in shock at how wonderful everything is and imso so thankful!!

to everyone who’s put nice things in my inbox ahhh oh ym gsoh its OVERWHELMING how many messages i have and its just the nicest thing on earth and im crying from all of them. thank you.

also hi to new followers i’ve gained during this!! sorry about all of this.. you kind of found me during a tough spot!!! hopefully i’ll have this fixed sometime soon and i’ll  be back to regular blogging!!! 

im going to reblog all of the gifts that i’ve been given real quick so i can have them and you can all appreciate them as much as i do!!!!! t hank you so so so so much and i hope everything turns out all right.

gnight for now!!! <333

soulgems:

hey everyone!! just wanted to updade you all on what’s going on with me. well, sunday morning at 3 am i had a severe seizure, causing me to bite my tongue hard eough to cut it in more than 3 places ((its kinda hard to eat)) and i was rushed to the hospital, i dontremember much of what happened but i do remember throwing up quiet a bit of blood. Well, after a few tests that have names like MRI and EEG, they’ve discovered that i have something in my brain that is messing up blood flow and its a mass about the size of a large walnut. i have 2 options. i caneither have chemotherapy for 2-3 years to get rid of it while having an increased risk of another seizure during that time,or i can have openbrain surgery to have it removed. havent decided what we’ll do yet but just wanted to let you guys know what’s going on!! i wont be online for a bit, but just know im thinking of all of you an i love you all very very very much, please a good week and remember that i’m thikning of you guys!! bye for now <33

The surgeon says it’s an arteriovenous malformation. He said
I may require cranial surgery (invasive, did not give success
rate). We might be able to do radiation over a process of 3 years
(gamma knife, 85% success rate). The team of doctors are meeting
to discuss best options. The mass is putting pressure on my brain; and the blood is irritating the cortex, causing me to forget things off and on (i couldnt remember my tumblr pass earlier///) im getting an anti-seizure med twice a day and pain meds when needed. thank you everyone whos said theyre thinking of me and im sorry to cause trouble!! my heart goes out to you all and i jope i’ll be able to return to you all shorty. thank you for the support!!! ‘lll try to keep updates coming but please dont expect frequent ones!! i love you all veyr much <333

hey everyone!! just wanted to updade you all on what’s going on with me. well, sunday morning at 3 am i had a severe seizure, causing me to bite my tongue hard eough to cut it in more than 3 places ((its kinda hard to eat)) and i was rushed to the hospital, i dontremember much of what happened but i do remember throwing up quiet a bit of blood. Well, after a few tests that have names like MRI and EEG, they’ve discovered that i have something in my brain that is messing up blood flow and its a mass about the size of a large walnut. i have 2 options. i caneither have chemotherapy for 2-3 years to get rid of it while having an increased risk of another seizure during that time,or i can have openbrain surgery to have it removed. havent decided what we’ll do yet but just wanted to let you guys know what’s going on!! i wont be online for a bit, but just know im thinking of all of you an i love you all very very very much, please a good week and remember that i’m thikning of you guys!! bye for now <33

misyeol:

seriously look at how cute this all is 💕

misyeol:

seriously look at how cute this all is 💕

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